Sometimes I Wonder

Sometimes I wonder

What people think

How I am perceived

and why it matters so much to me.

Sometimes I wonder

What I'm missing

Where else I could be

and what I'm not doing right now.

Sometimes I wonder

What is wrong with me

What I could be or become

and why I'm so filled with judgment.

Sometimes I wonder

What wonder really looks like

What being lost in the moment is

and if I've really savored it.

Sometimes I wonder 

At the ephemerality of life

The vacuousness, the meaninglessness

and how prone I am to filling the void.

Sometimes I wonder

I become lost in thought

The brain churns as the world turns

and now is such a time.